I, 18 F, is sooooo insecure with my body.
Ang hirap ipaliwanag ng napagdaanan ko sa lahat ng tao kaya dito ko nalang ieexplain para man lang may awareness yung iba. Teenager palang big issue na sakin yung dark underarms ko, i got it when i was a kid. Elementary.
Our school had a program where they promote hygiene kasi nga we're growing up na. Of course as a little girl na conscious sa sariling amoy, i did what they taught me and used deodorant kahit na pinagbawalan ako ng mother ko. Dun nangitim yung armpit ko ahhahaha.
At first it wasn't a big of an issue kasi bata pa naman ako. Not until nag highschool ako. My god inggit na inggit ako sa mga kaklase kong kering keri mag sleeveless sa practice and christmas party.
Dagdag niyo pa yung chest ko na awkward for my age, grade 5 palang tumutubo na siya kaya nung grade 8 ang laki whahahahah. Hirap pa naman magsuot ng cute outfits kapag insecure ka na nga sa bust mo, insecure ka pa sa underarms mo. D cup yata ako today, i still hate it.
Dumating yung pandemic, mas lalo akong nainis sa katawan ko. I rapidly gained weight, had hormonal imbalance and i took pills kasi nga nagsstop stop yung period ko (came to the point kung saan pinagalitan na ng doctor si mama kasi apat na beses na akong nagpipills). Kinasusuklam ko maging babae that time. Ang hirap kingina.
Since i gained weight, stretch marks popped up everywhere. I shit you not, it's everywhere. Sa cleavage ko, sa singit ko, sa thighs ko, arms, underarms, tummy, sa likod ng tuhod, shoulders. Pati dark areas ko lumala, mangiyak ngiyak ako hahahha. My chest also went bonkers, made it ever harder for me to dress up nicely.
After ng pandemic, i promised myself to be better. I lost weight. Downside? ny underarms didn't leave me, andito parin kahit kung ano ano na pinahid ko sa bwicit na kili kili na yan, pati sa singit ko puta. Di lang yan, mas dumami and noticable na yung stretchmarks ko, i fucking hate it. Since i lost weight, nag sag yung tits ko for a goddamn reason. Di lang yan, meron narin akong bagong insecurity, yung big ass flappy arms ko na sinusubukan kong tanggalin through exercise.
Imagine, 18 palang ako tapos ganto na katawan ko? putangina para akong may limang anak. I try my best not to think of others, confident ako sa mukha ko tbh. Kaso sa katawan ko? next question.
Dagdag mo pa yung lalaking point out ng point out sa sungki kong ipin tas pinagtatawanan pa, putanginamo meita, fuckyou. Di mo nga mapost mukha mo sa socmed tas pinagtatawanan moko? dun ka nga and get a job.
Anywho, kaya talaga everytime na may nammeet ako na obsessed sa armpits, ambilis ko icut off HAHAHAHAHAGEUAUS. Diba? best solution.
I had to get this off my chest kasi insecure na insecure ako sa sarili kong katawan. Kung magsusuggest man kayo magpaderma or laser, keep in mind na 18 palang ako and I don't want my parents to think about me kasi may mas mahalaga pa silang babayaran. For now, siguro maghihintay nalang ako magwork ket ayaw ng nanay ko maging working student ako.

36-year-old male, 5'5" tall, weighing 140 lbs with around 20% body fat. Been exercising daily and burning approximately 600 calories per day through workouts.
Goal is to improve overall body composition, but unsure whether to prioritize fat loss or muscle gain. Since body fat is 20%, hesitant to gain more fat for health reasons.
Daily protein intake ranges from 130 to 170 grams. Aim for a caloric surplus to gain muscle mass, or will you still be able to build muscle while in a caloric deficit to lose fat, as long as protein intake is sufficient?

DAY: JUNE 9 2024
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ARE DATA BREACHES THE NEW NORMAL? SHOULD WE JUST ASSUME OUR DATA ISN’T SAFE?

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Pretty sure I am genuinely heading into psychosis. Unlike 90% of the people here, I did not get dpdr from from weed, edibles, panic attacks, anxiety attacks, or substance abuse, never did any of those things a day in my life. Whenever I post trying to find any answers as to what is going on here, I am met with no replies. My condition is chronic and has been slowly getting worse since I was 13, I am now 30. When I tell you my symptoms are severe and don't relate to anyone else's here, I truly mean that. I don't know if it's because I didn't get it from a one time event of weed, panic or anxiety or something, but I am in such a horrible state that I am losing my ability to function each day. Memory, vision, closed eye visuals, mental clarity, completely detached, dulled senses and sensory perception changes, hot head, pressure at back of head (both of which gets much worse with screen time), detached, mild scoliosis, hyperacusis and tinnitus (which makes it all worse because it happened recently while I was going through this and never have experienced it before this, from a dental cleaning). Most of these symptoms are things I never see mentioned here outside of memory and brain fog in severe cases. I do not have out of body nothing, no tunnel vision that I see a lot of people with weed or panic induced issues mention. I feel like my issues are for some reason stemming from my actual eyes but the optometrist I've been going to says my vision is fine.
I don't expect a reply, but I will give a brief write up. Never struggled with stress or anxiety growing up, never had a traumatic childhood growing up, I think something in my genetics or something physical caused this. I have always been a level headed person. When I was 13, I had a cold in the gym. I was born with a heart murmur which went away but left me with exercise intolerance that got worse over the years, now I get high blood pressure and elevated heart rate from just standing up. So in the gym at that age, I had a cold, I decided to shoot basketball even though I wasn't feeling well. Did this and time started skipping around me really bad, so I sat down, afterwards I went home that day and noticed that my vision was off. Like I couldn't properly focused on things and I had opened and closed eye visuals (that have gotten worse over the years), like visual snow but not black and white dots. This never went away. Got a few painless ocular migraines this year that went away and never came back. Every time they would happen, felt as if my vision cleared some but then they stopped happening entirely.
At age 19, I was doing something that required a lot of visual focus in low lighting, later that day I noticed I was feeling off, and all of my symptoms had gotten worse. But with the addition of brain fog. Light brain fog and perception issues, I couldn't describe this feeling to anyone so I just got over it and went on living my life, the cognitive issues never messed up.
At 25, went to the movies one night, didn't want to put my head on the seat, so I sat with forward head posture for the film. Next day, woke up, noticed my vision had changed again, this time with physical symptoms. Head pressure at the back of head whenever I would look at phones or any digital devices. Started having double vision when putting finger in front of face.
Age 30, February, was playing a game one night, endless archive in ESO. Intense session, forward head posture, really immersed because it requires a lot of concentration. Put in eye drops and went to bed. Next day woke up, feeling more off, the first cognitive change since 19, my vision was worse, extremely heavy eyes, constant pressure at back of head, eyes blurring when reading texting, having to constantly blink to refocus near vision , feeling like I'm looking through stuff instead of at stuff. No light sensitivity, but artificial lights like light bulbs, car light, and street lights all hurt my eyes and seem slightly brighter than before. When this first started I would get dizzy and nausea, but thoss two symptoms went away over time, or maybe my brain is blocking it out more now. My symptoms have all gotten progressively worse and have never once got better. I do not have episodes, my situation is chronic.
In May, really wanted to explore options before I completely lost my mind since I felt myself sinking deeper each day into what was happening, so I went to the dentist to see if I need work done which I do. They cleaned my teeth which unfortunately left me with permanent tinnitus. Those of you who do not have this, it's not just some ear ringing, it's chronic and makes it impossible for you to try medication or any kind of treatment methods because everything has the possibility of making it much worse, if you don't have this symptom, you truly don't know how good you have it, people with it sometimes get psychosis because their is no end. Things like mindfulness, meditation, stuff that never worked for me in general, are completely off the table with tinnitus, because you never have any form of peace anymore.
Lastly, I truly understand why most people look at posts but do not reply, if you know your situation is from weed, medication, substance, anxiety or panic attacks, and have struggled with these things your entire life, it's kinda odd to come in here and see some people with situations that seem more complex than yours which has a more simple cause. But the people like me still need help, advice and support as well. I search through people's profiles and am so amazed to see how many people are living normal lives with DPDR, like still finding enjoyment in stuff, still being able to concentrate physically and mentally, meanwhile I'm like a complete vegetable and cannot go back to any sort of a normal life. It makes me feel like even more of an idiot because I come here every blue moon, type up a whole story in hopes that I can get some help or guidance, and then get completely ignored because no one has it as rough, or everyone got it through weed, childhood trauma, drugs, or otherwise.
It truly makes you feel cursed knowing that you never experienced any of those things, actively avoided those things all your life, and still ended up like this, with one of the more chronic, severe cases that no one can relate to. And then you watch a bunch of videos, tiktoks etc and can't relate to those as well. I won't talk about the stuff I have tried to help myself so far, because I don't expect to actually get a reply here, but I have a neurologist appointment a year from now, because that's how horrible healthcare is where I live, so I'm definitely not going to be alive by that point.
To those of you who have "episodes", or only experience mental issues with no physical components to your situation, I just want you to know how truly lucky you are. For those of you who have it like me, and struggle to stay present in any given moment, not tied to anxiety or stress, drug abuse or weed, I know it doesn't mean much, but just know that you are not alone, even if your posts never get any replied.
Reddit is a forum that mostly houses the majority, so there will be a ton of support here for people who got their dpdr or dissociative disorders from panic attacks, anxiety attacks, trauma abuse, drug or weed abuse, and no support for those of us with less conventional origins. Because most people's origins are anxiety, panic, drug or weed induced, the advice thats given is to alleviate those things, keep your anxiety low etc. Thats why you can't find support anywhere online for less conventional causes, like BVD, epilepsy, migraine disorders, etc, because no one here is interested in exploring other causes that aren't related to the common causes. Not only that, but most people's situations here are mild in that they are still able to go on and live a somewhat normal life. They don't have things like tinnitus, hyperacusis, or anything else that compounds their issues. I will read a story here about someone who has this chronic, and then check out their profile and it's just a bunch of normal stuff everyone else does. I guess that's the case if your situation is truly just caused by anxiety or depression and by getting treated for those things allow you to function and reconnect, but it really sucks how many of us I see here get outright ignored. It's not just my posts, I see it all the time. I'm ranting because at the end of the day we're all suffering, but those of us who are suffering in a more complex way or maybe have conditions that compound our current issues (like tinnitus, if you don't know how bad this is or never heard of this condition, check out that subreddit and then come back here).
My dpdr is so bad that I am essentially bed bound, I cannot do any of the normal things I see A LOT of people posting here or in their post history. Gaming, watching TV, classes, listening to music (tinnitus and hyperacusis), following a conversation. Imagine dealing with all of that, with no cause (outside of the tinnitus) and no support (because no one here can relate). Even now, I lay here, bed bound cognitively, with no anxiety or panic, slowly forgetting everyone and everything around me, trying to figure out what happened to cause this and if there's any way to treat it if it's not caused by anxiety, trauma, or drugs. I don't know of a subreddit to turn to when the dpdr subreddit can't relate to you. It's completely isolating. This post is long I know, but since no one ever really replies it doesn't really matter. Maybe I should be actually posting this in the psychosis subreddit, not sure, so many physical issues and weird progression to this point that it feels criminal to even post this here. Here is a little advice, if you have dpdr or something like it, and your situation is chronic with physical ailments (not stuff like tunnel vision, feeling out of body), I mean like actual vision issues, head pressure at the back of head, etc. And you know you never touched a drug or had anxiety and stuff growing up, please get off this subreddit and explore actual possible medical causes of your dpdr. Since most people are here due to very clear causes, the community is comprised of people who only are treated for anxiety and depression.
SOME ADVICE AND SUPPORT TO THOSE OFTEN IGNORED:
If you know your dpdr is not anxiety, panic, trauma, weed or drug induced, it's time for you to start looking elsewhere, because you could actually have undiagnosed medical conditions. Referring to the people who have severe cognitive issues. Also, some of you with mild dpdr (primarily just vision issues like floor moving, wall moving etc, dizziness in supermarkets), may have BVD (binocular vision dysfunction)
https://www.reddit.com/BinocularVision/
If you have tinnitus and hyperacusis (doesn't seem like many people here have), I do not recommend going to those respective subreddits, as they are very negative and dark.
If you have head pressure, ocular migraines or anything like that. It may be worth asking in the migraine and epilepsy subreddits to see if your symptoms line up with theirs.
If you have heart rate issues only standing, you may have pots or postural tachycardia, and may need to see a cardiologist, there is also subreddits for those.
If you live in an area with ticks, being tested is a good Idea even if you don't remember being bitten. Lastly, mild dpdr can also come from certain vitamin and mineral deficiencies, such as vitamin d, b12, or iron deficiency. Stuff like MS or chiari malformation as well. Some of this stuff may help some of you if your dpdr does not have a cause. Also, even if you all know your dpdr was caused by weed, anxiety or drugs, alcohol etc, you should still give support to the people here who don't have those things. This condition is already extremely isolating, so even if you know your dpdr isn't severe (as in you can still function to some degree), or only comes in episodes, you can still help, especially if other people here have helped you before, like paying it forward.

I’m 18, have struggled with acne before when I was 13-15 years old, mostly bc of hormonal changes. My skin cleared up COMPLETELY when I was 16, and hit when I turned 17, I got diagnosed with PCOS, following my rise in cystic acne breakouts, hirsutism etc.. I’ve tried everything. Spearmint tea, flaxseeds, rice water, I already have a very healthy, fried food free, relataively sugar free diet, i exercise frequently. I’ve gone to the derm, I’ve been prescribed with BC pills, nothing is working, I just keep breaking out with cystic pimples, my pores are so clogged too. I’ve tried benzoyl peroxide, I’m allergic to it, salicylic acid doesn’t do much, Azelaic acid seems to be too strong for me? I think a big reason could be stress, that period when my skin was clear, I was pretty stress free. I’m in my final year of HS, so I can’t dial down the stress. Literally don’t know what to do. Anyone want to recommend me some good skincare😭
Current routine AM/PM glycolic and salicylic acid cleanser (dermatologist ) Mederma scar gel Dr G clear soothing moisturiser Beauty of Joseon sunscreen (AM obv) Tea tree oil/ la rochey posay effaclair soot treatment

Lobuche East Peak, located in the Khumbu region of Nepal, measures about 6,119 meters (20,075 feet) and attracts people from all parts of the world. Climbers come to experience the breathtaking view and undertake the arduous task of the climb Lobuche East. This is an exceptional mountain on the border, within the Everest massif, which will allow you to combine emotion, beauty discovery, and cultural immersion with the Sherpa population.
Attractive for professionals and enthusiasts, those eager to find new trekking destinations – Lobuche East Peak will not stay unemployed and will dazzle you with an incredible experience.
Speaking of the nations and cultures depicted in the film The Allure of Lobuche East, it is important to notice that currently there are such countries as Nepal and members of the European Union depicted in the movie.
Lobuche East Peak will remain not so popular compared to other giants of the region like Mount Everest or Lhotse. However, this peak holds its allure for several reasons: However, this peak holds its allure for several reasons:
Stunning Panoramic Views: Upon reaching the summit, climbers enjoy spectacular views of some of the tallest mountains on the planet, including Mount Everest, Lhotse, Nuptse, the beautiful Ama Dablam, and Pumori. The beautiful views of the mountains at the break of dawn are breathtaking and give a spectacular feel.
Technical Challenge: Hence, although it is not as challenging as some of the other much higher mountains, a climb up the Lobuche East can be quite strenuous. It involves some serious skiing in rather steep snow and ice fields, so it is a very suitable mountain for learning mountaineering skills.
Rich Cultural Experience: The trek to Lobuche East Peak passes through the most captivating areas in the heart of the Khumbu region dominated by the legendary Sherpas. In between, we get to traverse through the landscape and explore some impressive monasteries, witness festivals, and indulge in typical Sherpa hospitality.

Preparing for the Climb Lobuche East Peak

While attempting to conquer the mountains, consider the following important aspects of Lobuche East Peak, which is comparatively easier Here are some essential tips for aspiring climbers: Here are some essential tips for aspiring climbers:
Physical Fitness: Lobuche East Peak is however one of the challenging treks that requires more stamina. Cardiovascular endurance exercise, strength conditioning, and flexibility exercise must form part of your exercise regime. Other systematic exercises that will foster acclimatization include frequent uphill walking/jogging and climbing.
Technical Skills: The specific task does not require highly advanced climbing skills, but elementary mountaineering skills are crucial. Rehearse using crampons, ice axes, and ropes before the actual skiing event. If you have no prior mountaineering experience, consider taking a course to get started and learn how to work within a rope team.
Acclimatization: Medical practitioners advise that it is mandatory to take time when going to such regions and Not to rush since this could lead to high risks of altitude sickness. Sure, itineraries contain rest days and traveling alt kilometers, which allow the body to acclimatize to the thin air. The treks that one can take through the route are the following; EBC Trek, as a part of the Lobuche East leading up to the mountain.
Gear and Equipment: This is all about getting the best gear most of which is costly you have to invest your money on these items. Warm sleeping bag, down jacket, warm layers of clothes, appropriate climbing shoes, and technological climbing equipment. Make sure that certain requirements such as a fit and functioning equipment are checked before engaging in the climb.

The Climb: Act One: From Lukla to the Summit

Hiking starts with the flight from Kathmandu to Lukla, which is one of the most-tracking and difficult airports in the world. From Lukla, the journey unfolds as follows: From Lukla, the journey unfolds as follows:
Trek to Namche Bazaar: The trail features several suspension bridges strung with prayer flags and passes through forested areas. Namche Bazaar which is alive in a complete sense for the Khumbu region gives a good opportunity to take rest and also to adapt.
Base Camp Trek: Similarly to the previous day, the climbers head towards the stunning villages of Tengboche and Dingboche, which are touristically developed but offer a deep look at the region’s culture. The climb to EBC serves as both a break and a pleasure for the entire trip, as it also aids in acclimatization.
Lobuche Base Camp: From Lobuche village, the trail leads to the Lobuche Base Camp which has several lodges and facilities for mountaineers. Here, climbers get the chance to spend a few days coming to terms with the environment, rehearsing, and training for the final push to the highest point.
Summit Ascent: Climbers usually ascend the mountain during the day to benefit from the favorable weather conditions typically found in the morning. Located near the steep area, climbers must navigate the snow field, icy slopes, and steep inclines to reach the summit ridge. Getting to the top is a victory and that is when the grandeur of the WSM can be viewed from all angles with the framed giants of the Himalayas.
Descent and Return: Experiencing the top’s edge views, as well as snapping pictures to provide evidence of the accomplishment, climbers have to take particular caution while coming back to Base Camp. The return trail retraces the route to Lukla where there is a flight to Kathmandu. The magnificent view and feeling of accomplishment can still be felt in the afternoon.
In this case, it is about the experience beyond the climb, the process of pushing oneself to accomplish the goals set, and coming out on top as winners.
Lobuche East Peak trek is not just ascending through the rugged terrains, but it is also the delight of appreciating and interacting with the diverse and aesthetically endowed part of the globe. The real joy and satisfaction come from the genuinely hospitable greeting from the people of Nepal, particularly the Sherpas; the stunning natural environment of the Himalayas; and the friendship forged with fellow adventurer climbers.
First of all, the climb of Lobuche East Peak is also a spiritual exercise for most of them. Indeed, when one is hiking in the INR, the prayer flags billowing in the wind, the prayer wheels spinning, and the chanting of monks in monasteries in distant yonder bring a deep and meaningful purpose to the whole escapade.
That was our experience, but it also should be known that it takes at least 6 consecutive days of climbing to successfully summit Lobuche East.
Climbing Lobuche East Peak normally requires 18 to 21 days, depending on the climbing itinerary and the need for proper acclimatization.
Here’s a general breakdown of a typical Lobuche East Peak expedition: Here’s a general breakdown of a typical Lobuche East Peak expedition:

Day-by-Day Itinerary For Lobuche East Peak

Day 0-1: This is because upon arriving in Kathmandu city at an altitude of 1,400m, the travelers experience fatigue resulting from the changes in altitude. Arrival in Kathmandu, where the participants will be met by our representative expedition team, and briefed on the upcoming exercise. The last day of work and the search for the last permits before ending the construction of the house.
Day 2: Kathmandu is the first destination of the tour which includes a city tour of Kathmandu.
Spend some time seeing the cultural attractions of Kathmandu, ensure all the appropriate gear is working, and make the last adjustments before the trek.
Day 3: Travel by airlines to Lukla (2,800m) Treks to Phakding (2,670m)
Flight to Lukla and a comparatively one and half hour, trek to Phakding.
Day 4: Days Trek to Namche Bazaar at 3,440 meters.
Tashidanda treks through beautiful geographical terrains to cross suspension bridges to reach Namche Bazaar, a lively village.
Day 5: The day for celebrating Acclimatization Day in Namche Bazaar
A relaxation day to allow trekkers’ bodies to recuperate with short optional hikes up some nearby Vista points or villages.
Day 6: The next destination is Tengboche or Thyangboche, situated at an altitude of about 3,860 meters. Gradually climb to the religious heart of the region, the village of Tengboche, which hosts a well-known monastery.
Day 7: Dingboche (4,410m) Trek:
This is our third day and our main goal is to reach the Dingboche village. Cross the surrounding rhododendron forests and pastures that lead to Dingboche.
Day 8: As for today we have celebrated Acclimatization Day in Dingboche.
Another travel day with incremental altitude gain to get used to the altitude In the interest of acclimatization, there may be a corresponding hike to a higher altitude.
Day 9: Lobuche Village is situated at an altitude of 4,940m and an adventurous trek would be required to reach this destination. Hike further through the commemoration of climbers and cross through moraines to Lobuche village.
Day 10-11: Ride to the Lobuche BC which is at an altitude of 4,950m.
Trek Lobuche Base Camp, approximately 30 minutes away, is where climbers gear up to reach the top. Base camp is an important center of activity in an expedition where explorers get some time to rest and adapt to the climate on the ground before proceeding further on the mission.
An inactive day was spent on ascending up and down the mountain, and learning how to use some of the climbing equipment required during the action.
Day 12: It is a blessing to trek to High Camp which is at an altitude of 5,400 meters.
Some follow the path to High Camp, where they make the final preparations for a summit attempt.
Day 13: Summit Day: Lobuche East Peak (20, 700ft) and Back to Base Camp
Beginning the climb at around 4. A. M till you get to the top of the Lobuche East Peak and then dive back to Base Camp.
Day 14: Contingency Day for attempting the summit
This is a spare day that has been provided just in case of situations such as unfavorable weather that may hinder the group from achieving its intended activities for the day.
Day 15: Pangboche village trekking – On arriving at the Pangboche village 3,968m
Head down towards the Base Camp, crossing through the area called Dingboche to arrive at Pangboche.
Day 16: A trek to Namche Bazaar
Descend further down to Namche Bazaar. Their part in your climbing adventure is over and you have done it unbelievably.
Day 17: Access Lukla only by walking or airplane.
it is located at a high altitude with the nearest road head is in Namche Bazaar, about 16 km away. The last day of the tour consisted of the trek to Lukla and the subsequent flight to Kathmandu.
Day 18: Arrive at the tourism hub of Kathmandu
After an early breakfast, an exciting flight from Lukla to Kathmandu, and then stay free in the town.
Day 19: The starting point at Kathmandu
Either take a flight back to Kathmandu or proceed further with additional travel arrangements.

Important Considerations

Acclimatization: This means that proper acclimatization is essential in order not to fall victim to such diseases especially when one is traveling to the mountains. Being different, rest days and gradual progress are a significant part of the schedule.
Weather Conditions: There are stretches in the climb that will require the player to have precise timing. The best visiting period is between March and May and between September and November because the weather is relatively consistent.
Physical Fitness: Applicants, or rather climbers, should be in good physical standing with proper build, strength, flexibility, and cardiovascular fitness.

Conclusion

To reach Climb Lobuche East Peak successfully deserves a considerable amount of time and effort as well as offers a great opportunity to discover a unique culture situated in the area of the genuine Heavenly Mountains.
However, when well prepared and acclimatized, and when respecting the montane environment, the expedition remains one of the captivating opportunities to stand amidst some of the highest mountains in the world.
Lobuche East Peak is highly significant as it is a symbol of people’s ability to climb even more challenging mountains and remain ambitious even in these difficult times. As a journey that requires walking, it affirms one’s body but in exchange, you get the most natural and culturally best of what Tanzania has to offer.
Regardless of whether in the center of the climb standing on top of the Terra or merely watching stars on Base Camp or having Nepali people’s cups of tea in a teak house each of those moments is a part of a way towards knowing and feeling the greatness of the Himalayas and the greatness of being.
Therefore prepare your selves by having your boots on, packing your gear, and pointing to climb Lobuche East Peak. The opportunity to embark on a legendary journey stands in from of you, the Himalayas are waiting.

So there are books like “Ultralearning” by Scott H. Young, among many others, that basically teach you how to learn. One key takeaway is knowing about active vs passive learning. In gamedev, passive learning can lead to “Tutorial Hell” in which you’ll never apply your skills (and never learn). This concept applies to every single field there is. Well, after reading the book I decided to try it out and make my own Ultralearning project, which will be focused on game development, something that I am quite passionate about at the moment.
My little programming background includes only most of CS50, which I haven’t touched in so long that I don’t think I can even continue and submit this as a final project. My goal is to make a mobile game, and it should at the very least be existent by the end of the summer. I am willing to spend at least 40 hours a week (basically a full time job) until then.
I have spent these past few days doing pre research, or “metalearning” as the book calls it, in which I ended up deciding to use Godot for this project. However, I am still figuring out what resources to use and how to proceed later on, and that is mainly the reason I am making this post. So far I am 4 hours into Clear Code 11 hours. I know I just bashed tutorials, but this one in particular has exercises and very good explanations. I will also tackle Godot Introduction, Introduction exam, and GDScript Documentation later on (perhaps I should’ve started with these). And most importantly I’ll attempt to make a flappy bird game by the end of the week.
Let me know your advice, any help is appreciated. I will be posting weekly updates.
Edit: forgot to provide the author of the book lol

I am not the OOP. The OOP is u/mdmeyers19822024 posting in legaladvice and his own user account
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Wife packed up and left with 11 month old while I was at work. is this legal?
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Hello everyone,
having a really tough last few days. On Monday I came home from an 8 hr shift training at a new job to find that my wife and mother in law had coordinated a moving company to come to our shared home of 9 years (rental) and pack up what she considers her belongings (some of which can be debated) she has also taken it upon herself to decide that our 11 month old, and all his necessities for well being are being taken to her Mom's house about a 45 minute drive away.
They have already established a bedroom for the kid and herself and this was obviously pre-meditated well in advance. I feel blind sided of course, but she blames it on my drinking problem and adderall usage. so while I do agree I have problems, I dont agree that this was all done without my consent or even trying to ask for any input.
I live in Austin TX and I do not know what to do at this point... she says she wants to remain separated by not divorced for no less than 6 months while I get a chance to "sober up" and go through substance abuse programs (already signed up) ... is it legal what she did or should I have any worry about future parental rights if the kid resides in that house for a certain period of time?
My wife has the advantage of a family safety net and plenty of money to support this and free room and board... and I am being stuck with the house by myself and all bills. I cannot afford it on my own. any advice on what I should do first?
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AurelianoTampa

any advice on what I should do first?

Stop drinking unless cold turkey would cause withdrawals, and stop using Adderall unless it's prescribed.
Unless your wife is nuts - and it sounds like she isn't, and you know exactly why she's separating from you - this should be your low point and your wakeup call. Get yourself put back together. Your wife did nothing illegal, and your reaction is a classic case of an addict complaining that their actions led to consequences, not of someone ready to take responsibility.
This should be your lowest point. If you don't start taking responsibility for yourself, then the real low point is even lower. Possibly - probably - six feet under the ground lower. Don't let it get to that point.
stopdrinking
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vexillifer
In the absence of some kind of court mandated parenting agreement then no, she has done nothing illegal. It sounds like this is a wake up call you needed. Hopefully you can make the necessary changes to reunite your family.

OOP: today is day 1

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**Judgement - No laws broken*\*
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Update - 8 days later
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6.2 million views on my only post.
Wild. Did not expect that hahaha... anyways thanks to all with the great support... and thanks for the laughs to those of you assuming im the devil and cursing me out. Cute.
Anyways a small update for anyone paying attention... my first substance abuse counselling session is this afternoon. It got delayed twice due to insurance. Im also going to an NA meeting around 7 with a friend.
My wife and I are talking and doing fine. I get my son all day tomorrow.. going to go buy some new toys for the little dude.
Some of you may have assumed i was snorting 12 inch lines of speed and a bottle of whiskey a day... sorry but it was too much adderall daily.. a scary amount to be honest and its pathetic of me to even have gotten that low. all i drink is shitty beer (dos xx or modelo)... i dont drink hard stuff other than holidays maybe.. not a fan.
No violence... no screaming fights.
She was just done with me abusing and pushing myself. Im done with that too. I agree with her and why she did what she did.
Im a week clean.. I cant wait to be a year clean. Im stubborn enough where im sure i can do this.
I love my family.. they love me back.. i just need to focus on repairing myself first.
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ToxicChildhood
Look, if your wife felt like she had to hide all of this info from you, planned her “escape” AND move 45 minutes away? Yeah, you messed up. Big time.
That said- kudos to you. A week clean is HUGE!! And I truly do hope you make it to 1 year, 3 years, 10 years and so on.
But remember that just because you are finally taking the steps to better yourself- doesn’t mean your wife is obligated to forgive you, trust you or give you another chance. She can be a support person for you but she still may eventually find that she cannot get past what happened.
Don’t get me wrong, it is great that she is being understanding and loving you through this- but don’t base your recovery on the hope of reconciliation or getting your family back. Cause if that doesn’t happen, your recovery will turn into a relapse.
The best thing you can do from this point forward is turn yourself into someone that your son AND you can be proud of. Everyone and everything else will fall into place. Including your marriage (whether that’s a positive or a negative).
I wish you luck!!

OOP: That's great advice and I appreciate the input for real. Her and I are on good terms at the moment she's impressed with how I've been handling myself I don't think I really mentioned it in my original post because I didn't think it was necessary and I didn't want to have any what about isms but I will point out that she also used to have the same bad habits and was also providing me with her additional prescription Adderalls up until about 2 weeks before she left so it was a little bit of mixed signals on my side whether she wanted me on the stuff or not
I'm not making excuses though and I'm not going back to that bullshit I've had a really great week and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel I'm definitely doing it for my boy and I don't 100% feel like this is going to save my marriage but I do know that it's already in the right direction for me so far I've already gone over there and hung out with their family twice and she talks to me every night it's not a disastrous situation in my brain like it was the first few days seeing everything from a sober perspective right now actually gives me a lot of Hope and I'm also really enjoying my new found healthy feelings I'm getting like waking up earlier and exercising a little bit

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SufficientRecord6701
Just keep in mind that you’re on a slight high right now being newly sober, so no matter how confident you are at this moment it can easily disappear for a bit. Especially between day 60 and 90. Don’t let that cause a relapse, it can get hard so just push through if or when it does and get chips at the meetings you attend for each milestone (if earning something or getting praise motivates you)

OOP: Oh trust me i know. Ive done 30 60 and 90 days before. But really didnt have any motivation to keep going other than they were challenges to myself at the time... this new job Im at and the fact that I'm temporarily renting a room to a really good friend, who is also Going through sobriety Is helping me out as well. I think at this moment I have more Positive influences than negative thankfully

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SufficientRecord6701
Oh that’s awesome! Having previously challenged yourself can be great help for this go around I think, I’m glad you have this positive foundation and you’re not home alone, good luck dude
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Straight-Ad6290
Damn dude, I know what she did at the time seemed like a betrayal but man you are lucky. Your wife clearly cares a lot about you. When it came to her giving you her prescription. She may have felt like she had to. Why would you take anyone's prescription medication is strange to me because she obviously needed it for herself for a reason. If you needed it you'd be prescribed it.
I have growths in my spine that cause pain and my ex used to take all my pain medication because he had a 'migraine'. Honestly tho. Even if you don't get back together try remember how considerate she actually was during this whole thing. She wouldn't divorce you for 6 months minimum because she believed you get get yourself together. She never took your child from you she wants you to see him she just put you in a position where you could focus on yourself and it probably made sense to remove herself from the situation because you had to be able to do it for yourself and your life and your happiness.

OOP Posting 9th June:
Yeah totally I mean she is on my side 100% when it comes to recovery..I'm doing well, today is my 18th day sober and I feel great!! I bought a mountain bike last week and I replaced the TV in my bedroom with a new 65 inch one.. and a new PC as well..so I get to exercise and relax on the same day.. and it's really helping me sleep! my new job is awesome as well so I get to see my boy every Thursday Friday and every other Saturday working a block shift (I work as an automation tech)
Her and I actually hung out last night and had a little bit of adult time together.. it was fun but we both made it clear it was not any kind of rekindling and we're still on the same page we just kind of had to get some urges out you know. As of right now things are amicable and probably going as good as they possibly can. I told her that she is probably the best person anyone could ever be separated from the way she is being so cool about stuff. Her family is inviting me over for dinner and stuff as well and we get to celebrate our son's first birthday on the 7th of July and have a really good party planned.
My counselor is awesome too I've had some good conversations with him and I like how it's going it makes me feel good getting some of my feelings out to a stranger it also kind of makes me feel good just to post on here I'm not much of a poster on Reddit I never have been I've been lurking on Reddit for years now..
The thing is I just need to remember that I'm doing all this Improvement for myself and not to get her back it's to fix me first she is working through her own problems also I'm doing it for me and my child and then if all goes well hopefully we do not end up separating for good that's what I've got to think about everyday I really hope her and I can get back together but I always have to remind myself that I need to work on me first I am the problem

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Oh man, I very happy for you. You've absolutely got this! It's all about being the kind of person you want to be. The kind of role model you want for your kid and when he is grown up if he learns about how hard you fought for him and yourself I know he will be proud of you. And let's be honest dude. If random people on reddit are routing for you I bet your family is routing the hardest for you. People arent perfect. We aren't supposed to be. That's how we grow. I'm super proud of you tho dude. 18 days is huge
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Please remember the No Brigading Rule and to be civil in the comments

Rereading RMB and this comes up:
“I love you,” she whispered. “I’ve loved you for years.”
“I know,” he said, surprising himself with his words. He had known, he supposed, but he’d thrust it from his mind because her love made him uncomfortable. It was hard to be loved by someone decent and good when you didn’t return the emotion. He couldn’t dismiss her, because he liked her and he’d not have been able to forgive himself if he’d trampled on her emotions. And he couldn’t flirt with her, for much the same reasons.
And so he had told himself that what she felt wasn’t really love. It had been easier to try to convince himself that she was merely infatuated with him, that she didn’t understand what true love was (as if he did!), and that eventually she would find someone else and settle down into a happy and contented life. ————————
I’d been in a situation with a new-ish friend where the other person wanted more than I could give. It’s sucks. I felt guilty and uncomfortable and wished I could be what she wanted. I was in need of friends after all but I didn’t feel as strongly at that moment and knew I couldn’t commit even if I tried. It’s like she saw potential in me, and I probably saw it too, but I needed a different timeline to develop those feelings.
I felt the same way about exercising. Despite conditions being good, I couldn’t get myself started until one day I did.
Thoughts?

I am bipolar. I need to know the exact reason for this scenario or phenomenon. When I had took SSRI for the first time, I felt the best times of my life. That one day that gave me that happiest state was just short lived. I was having no social anxiety, depression or any troubles. I was busy living those 24 hours. I prayed to my God to bless me to have this kind of state most of the time (i didn’t urge to have all the days). Then i thought to chase that SSRI state by natural ways such as exercising or meditating. But i am not able to gather the courage to start doing exercises.
I need deep level of philosophy or say motivation to get stick to start exercising atleast each day otherwise this bipolar may spoil me via every angle.
Thank you!

According to the Mayo Clinic, night sweats are repeated episodes of very heavy sweating during sleep, heavy enough to soak your nightclothes or bedding. They're often caused by an underlying condition or illness.[1]
Sweating is completely normal and is a necessary bodily function that regulates body temperature.
Though night sweats can also be caused by sleeping with too many blankets or in a room that is too hot, these reasons are not considered “night sweats,” despite happening at night. Other practical reasons include eating spicy food before bed, consuming hot beverages before bed, hot weather, and exercising before bed.

I am NOT OOP, OOP is u/Ok_Investigator_6011
Originally posted to TrueOffMyChest
Editor’s Note: added paragraph breaks for readability
Editor's Note 2: BSA is Boy Scouts of America, FOIL is Freedom of Information Law
My mother abused me my whole life, and is now suing me to see my children - I'm fed up!
Trigger Warnings: abuse, mentions of alcoholism, emotional abuse and manipulation, past trauma, verbal abuse
Original Post: May 31, 2024
I am a 41 year old, happily married father of 5 children. My wife and I have been married for 20 years and both of us came from fractured, chaotic families. My wife's parents divorced and were both alcoholics. Her father died of liver failure and her mother has cooled off a bit and has retired. My parents went through a vicious, violent divorce when I was a child. My father moved 10 states away to get away from the craziness and my mother has never changed.
Because of our experiences with violent and unstable families, my wife and I have worked extremely hard to be picture-perfect parents and spouses. We've done everything you can think to have a perfect life for our kids. My wife is a sports coach and I'm a scoutmaster with the BSA. Our kids are healthy, engaged, and have everything they need physically and emotionally. This has been in spite of our families, not because of them.
My mother is a terrible woman. She systematically abused me throughout my whole childhood, and continued to be a violent, bitter, mean and aggressive person to me throughout my whole life. I could sit here for hours and write about the things that she's done. She used the courts to destroy the life of my father for decades. Once he was out of the house, she turned her anger at me with physical and emotional violence.
When I was 16, she expelled me from the house and left me homeless. I had to go from house to house, figuring out where to live, and try to graduate high school. I ended up living with an older boy that was about 4 years older than me, and I had to engage in a sexual relationship with him in order to secure that housing. I was not gay, I did not want to be gay, and I had to endure something that destroyed me in order to not be sleeping on the street. When I turned 18, I was able to start working at a better job, and was able to get out of that bad situation and start my life from scratch.
My wife and I have scratched and clawed our way into a stable, middle class lifestyle. We both went to college at night for years and years, and we have good jobs and a house in the suburbs. Out of a sense of duty to our family, I sought to include my extended family in our lives, and permitted a relationship with strict boundaries between my mother and my children. For the most part, she has been fairly stable for about 20 years. I say stable in that we could have routine contact about once per month for that time period, with a minimum of disruptive behavior. She has never acknowledged her abuse to me as she is an extremely selfish person. Everything about our past has been left unsaid.
My mother, over the last 2 years, has become completely unraveled. Her second husband decided to leave her for his own health and sanity, and she has instantly reverted back to the most cruel and the most bizarre behavior imaginable. All aspects of her life have been affected. She is calling the cops, suing him in family court, alienating large parts of her family from one another, all while trying to tell my children about why their grandfather is a bastard for how she feels about him. Once I saw this happening, I said "that's it, not again" and took some action.
At the beginning of this year, I wrote a very courteous note to my mother asking her to re-evaluate the way she's been behaving to me and my family. When I tell you it was neutral and courteous, I really mean it - I checked it like 5 times. She responded by calling me terrible names (ungrateful piece of shit for example) and screaming bloody murder on the phone at me. I blocked her from my phone, then she did the same thing to my wife. So I informed my mother by email that I'd like to maintain distance until she works on herself in therapy or with her divorce mediator. Things lay still for about 6 months.
This morning, I wake up to a series of bizarre emails from my mother asserting that she wants to see my children for their birthday which is coming soon, and that she is giving me 24 hours to provide acceptable dates for permitting visitation or to be prepared for a legal summons to family court. I'm like, wtf???? This woman is the equivalent of a schoolyard bully, following me around in life, tormenting me non-stop until you just want to cry! The worst part of a bully is that when you ask them to lay off you for even 5 minutes, that they just take this as a cue to keep it up even more!
I took one look at this and I was like, holy shit, this woman is clearly out of her fucking mind. Now I know in the post title I said she's suing me - I work in the legal field and I know that until I've been summoned to appear, that I have not been sued. So, no, she's only threatening to sue me right now. Sorry for using the hyperbole. But I'm finding myself in the same bizarre, out-of-touch reality that everyone in this person's life finds themselves.
This batshit insane woman forced me to see my own father at a McDonalds when we were kids for 2 hours every two weeks (as per the court order) while she waited outside in a running car. I was only allowed to see him in this fashion because she hated him and didn't care what this would do to her own kids. There were more than a few times when the clock would strike 8 and she would come screaming into the McDonalds threatening to call the cops and have my dad arrested for kidnapping while grabbing us by the arms and pulling us out of the store. This is what she's capable of doing with family court.
I had a literal, hyperventilating panic attack on the floor of my office this morning. I have sought to be respectful, mature, and use good decision making this whole time. My wife and I have an extremely secure marriage and she is in agreement with me 100% through all of this. I'm finding myself wishing that my mother would just die already, and just please to leave me alone. She's like this inescapable bully that will never, never under any circumstance leave a person alone until she's proven that she can hurt them. I don't even care what she's experienced in her life. I just need to be away from her!
So that's my true off my chest story. I've been living with this shame and fear and lingering self-hatred for 30+ years, all while trying to be super-dad and a great career man. I called a local family law practice today to get a referral. I'm going to ask them to send a demand letter to her, to try and get her to back the hell off, but look at what this has come to! I have to shell money out of my own pocket to protect myself and my kids from my insane mother. I feel like Rodney Dangerfield sometimes. Ironically, the money I'm going to have to send to the lawyer for their retainer is money that I had earmarked for the kids to go to summer camp. So figure that one out.
Thank you for letting me tell you my story. Just typing it out helps.
Relevant Comments
OOP on if there are legal precedent that gives her threats in his area

OOP: New York does provide an avenue for grandparents to sue for custody, although it would turn into a protracted legal fight that will cost me a lot of money and aggravation if she does.
In general, the process is the punishment. I had to deal with family court and CPS, cops etc when I was 10 and my parents were getting divorced. If you wanted to see me literally pass out on the floor, you'd drag me back to family court.

OOP on his mother having the financial means to sue for grandparents rights

OOP: I've seen this woman use the courts to destroy my father for over ten years. The answer is, who knows? I guess I'll just have to wait for a court summons to see what she will do.

Chocolatecandybar_: OP, I'm extremely sad to read it. I suppose you know that, would she sue you, this would more likely bring to her 40yrs horrors being exposed in court and her being denied to stay on the same planet of your kids. So, I suppose that you're here to just get it off and YES YOU DON'T DESERVE IT and definitively yes you are paying for having been a good person
May life repay you and your mom. All my vibes are for you
 
Update: June 3, 2024
I posted this all on Thursday when I was experiencing a serious amount of turmoil. Since then, I've calmed down a lot and also had the good judgement to talk this over with the important people in my life.
First thing's first, I'd like to thank everyone for the words of encouragement and support that were given. There were some surprising insights from many of the posters, and I found myself agreeing with and appreciating many of the stories of support that were posted by others. I now understand that I am not the only person with a domineering, selfish, easily enraged parent.
To all the people who blamed me for being a victim of my mother, and somehow being at fault for all this: well, I want to use some strong language to you, but I'll just ask you to please think about how fortunate your life has been that you haven't experienced what I have experienced.
So on to the update: As it turns out, only two states in the union have codified grandparents rights (California and New York) and I do live in New York. Basically, in New York a grandparent does not have the automatic right to have access to grandchildren, but a grandparent does have automatic standing to file a petition to be heard in family court. The petition can be squashed, but they can file the petition. I do want to get back to this later.
I did conference with a family law attorney on Friday, and he helped me to understand the situation and craft a strategy. He was generous enough to not require a retainer unless and until I'm served with legal papers. He basically explained that the grandparent does have standing to file a petition based on a pre-existing relationship with the grandchildren, but that she would most likely not be able to overcome the desires of two married parents who are both exercising their judgement for the health and safety of their children. He explained that in NY, our simple desire to terminate a relationship would most likely be overcome in court, however if we introduce some of the specific actions that she's exhibited over the last few years (familial alienation, adult humor near children, uncontrollable anger, hoarding of housecats, dangerous operation of a motor vehicle) that we would very likely prevail in a court setting. He explained that the good thing is that we had already restricted contact between our children and my mother to about once per month, and that in his experience he had never seen a court order for grandparent visitation for more often than once a month, for one hour per session. I try to be reasonable so I said, ok, the worst case scenario is supervised status quo.
I did broach the topic of a restraining order, and I was quickly schooled on how that works. Despite the Reddit attorneys who all assured me that I can automatically get a restraining order, well, I hate to say that you're all completely wrong. An order of protection has to be accompanied by some facilitating act of domestic violence. Because I've only been harassed and alarmed by words, I can't be granted a restraining order period. However, if my mother causes some disorderly act such as coming to my house and causing a ruckus, that could trigger an order if and only if I document it by having the police come and detailing a report. So, keep that in mind next time you recommend a restraining order. They're not easy to get.
The attorney recommended that I send a private cease-and-desist to my mother via certified mail and email. I decided to write a two-page, brutal takedown of this woman in order to a) blow off some steam and b) document in writing my concerns and try to get ahead of her legal maneuvering. I decided to take a two pronged approach. First, I send this cease-and-desist to her on Friday at lunch time via email and also certified mail. Then, I took a page out of her playbook and publicly scorched the earth to apply social pressure to her. I emailed and texted every single member of my extended family (brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, my stepfather, my father) and spoke to several of them to tell them exactly what was happening. Whether they wanted to hear it or not, I sent them intimate details of my mothers abuse and my decision to cut her off for the welfare of myself and my family.
My reasoning there is simple: my mothers abuse thrives in closed doors and embarrassed silence. For 30 years I've had to hear "oh, you know, that's just the way your mother is", while people just stood by and let her act in the most insane and violent ways you can imagine. My mother got angry at my stepfather last year, and tried to run him over with her car, then crashed her car into the front door of his business screaming at him and ranting and raving in public. Do you know what people did? They surely called the police or an ambulance and had her monitored for her safety, right? No! My sister quickly threw her into her car and drove her away so that she wouldn't be arrested. My stepfather was so embarrassed that he took the crashed car, drove it to a parking spot, and then paid out of pocket for the damage to the front of his business. This is what happens in families that are dealing with a crazy person. They cover it up, hoping that it will someday get better. Well I'm not comfortable with this anymore. I sought to publically embarrass and pressure her for a change.
Anyway, by Friday afternoon, my mother got the message and sent me emails telling me that I can "stop attacking her" and maligning her to my family. She indicated that she would abandon any legal efforts to seek visitation with my children. This was a relief, but to be fair I was almost looking forward to having a public forum to describe her antics at court. Nevertheless, it seems like she's backing off for the moment. The fallout and damage to my extended family is most likely severe and permanent. However my wife and I discussed this fully and have decided that this is the direction we're going in. We'll just have to have holidays by ourselves if the family can't be loyal and supportive to me.
On to the last point, and I really want to drive this home. In 1991, my mother conducted an incredibly vicious divorce against my father. I mean, she literally sought to destroy him, and she did. He was completely beaten by her. One of the things that my father told me about just this weekend, was that at the time my grandparents on his side sought to have guaranteed visitation with us after the divorce. My mother actually went to court on that specific topic, and specifically litigated that she was the custodial mother and had sole decision making about who the children would be around. The court ruled at the time that in fact, there was no right for a grandparent to see children, and my mother successfully was able to keep me away from my (very loving and happy) grandparents for years. I was only able to see them during court-mandated visitation with my own father. The law in New York changed in 2000 so that grandparents rights came into effect, too late to help me unfortunately.
I want to really drive this home: the fucking balls on this woman to go to court on her own behalf and state in a court of law that she, as the custodial mother of children, has the sole and ultimate decision on who her children have relationships with, and then to 35 years later attempt to use the changes in law to assert that she has grandparents rights to visitation - despite the wishes of the both parents - was too much for me to bear. That alone made me say, no way, not happening under my watch.
So that's the update. Long winded, yes, but it makes me feel good to type this out. I'm finally able to unburden the unbearable shame and embarrassment of what happened to me to members of my family, and I won't allow myself to be ignored anymore. I'm 41 and my selfish, insane baby-boomer asshole mother is in her mid 70's and has no power over me anymore. I'm sick and tired of bottling this up. Anyone who doesn't like it? They can go suck an egg. I deserve to have loyal and faithful people in my life.
Relevant Comments
Ascholay: Isn't her case now public record? If she believes that only custodial parents should dictate a child's relationship with extended family... isn't that something a lawyer can look up and use?

OOP: I have started the FOIL request at the family court where the divorce was adjudicated, however this will likely take months and months to get the records. I may read them just to more fully understand my family's history.

tattoovamp: The AUDACITY of this beetch!!
OP, you got sound advice from Your lawyer and you outed her to her family. Good job!
Practical-Chest2313: man, i am so unbelievably glad that you stood up for yourself and that you and your wife are united in standing up to your extended family. that’s not easy to do. nobody deserves to be treated like that, but abusers are so, so good at making you believe that you’re the one exception.
 

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THIS IS A REPOST SUB - I AM NOT OOP

///TW $H, 3D, S@ MENTIONS, AND BULLYING MENTIONED
So for context, I'm forced to be in this religion (a STRICT religion) and I've come to make some "friends" in this religion. I'm not allowed to have any other opinions, but with this religion teaches obviously, so I figured I make some friends to actually keep me occupied before I can leave.
there was this one girl who recently moved in right by this religious place that I go to. her and her mom and her mom's fiancé are in this religion, and her mom is a little bit... weird. I won't go into much detail, but she lied about two girls phys1cay, verbay, and s..xu..ly abusing her daughter.
You may be wondering how I know this, right??? so basically before they move, they were going to this religious place and she claimed they were two girls around her daughters age there. Only 2 girls. She claimed her daughter had absolutely no friends. well almost right after we meet, she invites me to go to Miami with her and her daughter for a week. her daughter proceeds to call this girl, right? I asked how they met and they said "Oh, the old religious congregation we both went to together!" (Keep in mind, she's only been to 2 religious places in her lifetime (her mom confirmed)). so I was a little bit weirded out. THEN around four days later, we are stuck. We're completely out of ideas for what to do. I kid you not I went on Google Maps and I told this women's daughter literally every activity there was availble . She said she didn't wanna do any of it. OK you know what we can just stay inside!
Well, her mother calls my mom and says how horrible I am being in how I don't wanna do anything and go anywhere? Like I've literally been telling your daughter everywhere we could go. I even asked her mother "hey, can we go here if thats okay?" and her mom proceeds to call my mother and telling her how horrible I am. over the week. Her daughter would be very very rude to people and she would threaten to starve herself if I didn't eat minimum 2300 cal a day💀 (keep in mind she KNOWS a have an ED and "so does she" (i'll explain that later)" but that's not even all. This girls mother calls up the girl that allegedly sexually physically and verbally abused her, and told her how horrible I am. ME? LIKE I DODNT FUCKING DO ANYTHING⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️
Anyway ! I should clarify on the eating disorder thing for her. Her mom said that she had an eating disorder and she will lose so much weight. OK, seems believable. When I tell you, right when we were in the car on our way to Miami. Her mom tells me that I'm the reason her daughter relapsed in her ed... bitch tf?
So anyway , her mom won't shut the fuck up about her daughters body. And it's not like "Oh you're fat" it's "dont have an ed you're already skinny!" and stuff like that. I don't know what really to do at that time because I wasn't trying to even help myself. So I told the girl "you know I struggle with this stuff to, but honestly it wasn't worth it in the end, because I felt so unhappy and so uncomfortable in my own body, even worse than before I got uncomfortable with my weight" and right after I told her that is when this lady's daughter (I'm gonna call her Mango) starts up with that "I'm not eating if you're not gonna eat everything on plate" "I'm not getting dessert if you're not getting dessert" and her mom stood by her. Her mom would literally give me the most dirtiest look if I didn't want dessert.
So anyway, that was really triggering because I pretended that I was better and tried helping her, and then it felt like a slap in the face .
Also, for the "claims to have an ed" thing, first of all, she flaunts it in everyones face. I promise you I'm not being sarcastic or joking, one of the first thing she says when she meets people is "I starve myself because I hate myself" and she saying it with her chest. And then I went out with her once (not by will) and we saw an anorexic girl. By golly mango was horrified. She was horrified at the body her mother described her as, and the body she said that she wanted. And it was just the other things that made it weird like she does not do anything that somebody with an eating disorder normally does. I sound like such a bitch right now, but I am genuine like if she didn't flaunt it around, you would not know. she doesn't know her weight, her BMI, she doesn't do any exercise or check, she doesn't diet, when I had made a joke (a very OBVIOUS joke) to try to lighten the mood she had no idea what I was talking about.
I'm telling you this girl and her mother are literal narcissistic liars . I sound like a fucking crazy bitch, but you need to be around her to actually know. Like if you have an eating disorder and you were around her as she flaunts it around you you would be able to tell i promise you.
And then here's the thing, I also have an SH problem. She doesn't know about it because I cover it up pretty well, but this girl OH MY FUCKING GOD. And I know it fresh marks look like obviously, when I tell you this girl grazed all over her wrist like probably an hour before I went to her house today. She wore a short sleeve shirt, which is fine obviously, but she did not cover up anything they were still almost bl33ding. And she kept showing everybody her wrist not directly, sayin "look at my wrist" but she would always put her wrists in view. freshly cut wrists in front of guests, and always trying to direct attention around her hands. I promise you we were playing poker and she'd be all "omg, can i have free money >_< " and stick your hand and wrist in front of our face for us to see. Yeah, you can forget, but the thing is, they were still very fresh. You will remember to at least put a Band-Aid over them if they're that fresh.
anyway, my mom is very strict she doesn't even believe me and her mom is always lying to my mom about how horrible I am when it's her daughter doing the shitty ass things. If I tell somebody I'm gonna get in trouble with my mom because she's gonna be mad at me for being "selfish" and stuff. At this point, I don't even care if I'm being selfish, she makes me uncomfortable and she's a narcissistic lying little bitch.
I really don't know what to do because I promise you I genuinely cannot tell anybody because I'm going to get a major trouble. I don't know what to do, and I can't socially distanced myself because I'm gonna get more in trouble for that by my mom and by her mom. Her and her mother are horrible people I promise you I'm not delusional and crazy. You genuinely need to be around them to see how bitchy they are. I can't tell anybody, but I can barely ignore this. I mean I recently relapsed and both of those things and seeing her flaunt at around and treat it like it's a silly little thing that you can turn on and off makes me want to slap her face.
sorry for any misspellings I'm not actually typing this out so I'm not sure if things will come out shopping or not I'm just so upset right now I don't even want to read through this. please if you have any advice, please please please tell me because I really don't know what to do without getting in trouble

TW: nursing, oversupply
TL;DR: lots of planning, careful packing, and increasing comfort with pumping in public made it possible to pump and maintain my supply while away from my baby for 8 days, and despite annoying Spanish policies I made it back home with all the milk!
I just got back from a work trip to Spain and wanted to share my experience in case it's helpful for anyone else. I planned for this EXTENSIVELY and, other than some stomach problems keeping me from partaking too much of the actual work-related events, it went well. First, some background - my baby had just turned 3mo. We mostly nurse but I had started pumping early on when he was in the NICU, and kept pumping so my husband could do a bottle at night and in the morning.
This trip was on my radar since before he was born, so I also purposefully cultivated somewhat of an oversupply with a goal of having 200oz frozen by the time I left, so he could continue to get breastmilk while I was gone. (He has a disease of the colon and it's particularly important that he have breastmilk; otherwise I would have been fine with him having partial or mostly formula). In the end, I was so fortunate (this time! I wasn't able to breastfeed my first at all!) and had about 400oz frozen when I left. 200oz seemed like a huge number when he was 1mo and I was pumping 5-10oz a day (and giving two bottles) but I did the math and knew it was possible even if I only had a few ounces leftover each day.
Once it looked like my stash would be okay, I started thinking about the logistics of pumping while traveling. Here's my packing list:

• pump bag - I tried a ton and bought this because it had 1) two compartments, 2) pocket for the Ceres Chill, 3) strap to go on a suitcase, and 4) enough other pockets. You can carry on a pump bag in addition to your personal item and carryon because it's medical equipment! I didn't get any pushback after saying it was a breastpump.
• Spectra (pump from my first baby; I checked this and left it plugged in in the hotel) + power cable
• Baby Buddha (pump from this baby; this went in my pump bag for travel and at the workshop) + power cable
• outlet adapters!
• a bunch of pump parts and bottles, including flange inserts! I use mostly Medela parts (+ some Lacteck flanges) because the LCs gave us so many in the NICU, and I have the tubing etc. to connect them to both the Spectra and the BB. I recommend having full sets for each pump if you have multiples so you don't have to move things around. You could make do with fewer parts but it means more washing obviously
• Ceres Chill - crucial for travel days. I had extra chillers because one they sent was slightly defective, so I used them as extra large bottles.
• little cooler bag (came with the pump bag) and reusable ice pack - I used these for the travel days because 1-1.5 days' worth of milk for me is more than fits in the Ceres Chill. I also brought some extra ziploc bags that I could fill with ice to make on-the-go ice packs
• wearable collection cups - I bought Legendairy cups used from this sub, and got Elvie Stride cups for free from Aeroflow as my replacement parts!!! I thought it was too good to be true but it totally worked. I pumped several times in public with them (+BB) and they were super useful.
• nursing cover - helpful for pumping in public or getting situated, especially with regular flanges and bottles
• maternity/nursing tops and bras - I wore a super roomy, long maternity top on travel days that made it super easy to hike up and pump. On work days, I wore either regular shirts I could pull up or one of my two nice nursing tops. I also brought several pumping bras.
• pump spray or nipple cream - wish I had brought two! Anything that you need everytime you pump, bring two - one for the hotel and one for one the go.
• manual pump heads - another reason I like the Medela parts is because it just takes a small piece of plastic to turn any set of pump parts into a manual pump! Gave me peace of mind
• milk storage bags and gallon ziploc bags- I estimated my total pumping output to be about 35oz, assuming baby eats 25 and I have about 10 leftover. I multiplied that by 8 days (although some would come home in the Ceres Chill) and figured I would need about 50 bags. Also bring Sharpies to label them, and gallon ziplocs to pack them in bricks!
• pump wipes - definitely important during travel days.
• collapsible dishwashing tub and travel bottle washing set - TOTALLY worth it given how many dishes I had to wash.
• tupperware/wetbags/ziploc bags - for fridge hack or otherwise keeping things clean
• snacks and water bottle - for travel days and MOTN pumps!
• printed copy of the TSA guidelines - no one ever gave me shit but I was ready
• cooler backpack - MilkStork doesn't ship to/from Spain so I was responsible for getting my milk back home.
• "contingency items" - things I hoped to not need but wanted just in case: sunflower lecithin pills, cold compress (just fill with ice), travel massager, extra tubing/duckbills/membranes, etc.

I had to buy several things for this trip (dishwashing stuff, pump bag, cooler backpack) but will use most of it when I start working in the office soon.
In addition to the packing, I was planning. I contacted the workshop organizers and asked for a place to pump, and asked both them and the hotel about the availability of a fridge/freezer. Also, once we got the schedule, I put it into my calendar and scheduled 8ppd. I DID NOT FOLLOW THIS SCHEDULE but it was an important exercise, I think. The travel day was INSANE and if I hadn't had a plan there's no way I would have pumped as much as I did. I scheduled 8ppd with a goal of doing 7, and assuming that, based on the magic number chart, 6 or even 5 would be okay for me.
I also requested permission from my employer to fly business class because I needed to pump, and they agreed. This was so helpful, honestly - gave me access to really nice lounges during the layovers (more below) and I felt totally comfortable pumping in my little pod on the long flight. Plus, as a mother to a 3mo I was not interested in sacrificing sleep while traveling for work!
Okay now here's what this looked like, especially on the travel days:

• 7am: last nursing session, then head to the airport. I hadn't planned to pump until the first layover, but my flight was delayed two hours (UGH! I could have nursed again!) so I pumped at my home airport. They had a nice nursing mother's room - even with a sterilizer, although I didn't have time to use it.
• 1pm: land in Chicago, head to United Polaris lounge. I grabbed food, then sat in a little cubicle thing, stuck the Elvie Strides in my bra, and ate and pumped. No one looked at me twice. Afterwards, I washed in the bathrooms, which even had very hot water!
• 5pm: land in Dulles, head to United Polaris lounge. I looked for a private place to sit again, but no luck. But I found a "wellness room", which had a sink, changing table, and comfy chair. I grabbed food and brought it in, and then sat down to pump. This got uncomfortable because the attendant started knocking on the door after 10 min or so because apparently a family with a baby wanted to use it. I kept yelling back "I'm pumping, I'm using a breast pump, I'm pumping breastmilk" but I think his first language wasn't English and he didn't understand. He kept saying the room wasn't for sleeping . . . Anyway I finally opened the door to show him the bottles dangling off my boobs and he backed off, embarrassed. I wish they had had more than one room! Was able to wash parts again!
• I'll also note here that I refilled the Ceres Chill inner chiller with ice here; it had all melted. I guess it makes sense that 12oz of ice can't cool 24oz of body-temperature milk! Fortunately it's easy to refill.
• 8pm: on the international flight, as food service is starting, I put on the nursing cover and pumped. Wiped parts out.
• 6 hours later (8am local time): pumped again after waking up, same as before. Again refilled the Ceres Chill ice.
• 9:30am: meant to pump in the airport lounge before going through customs but I forgot. Kind of panicked, but I just called the taxi and pumped in the back seat with the Elvie cups. The driver didn't notice until we stopped and he heard the noise and asked what it was. When I said it was a breast pump he just smiled and we moved on. After he dropped me off, I found a cafe and sat at a table outside to remove them, store the milk, clean, etc. The waiter brought me ice for my little cooler bag since the icepack was pretty depleted.
• 2pm: at the train station before catching a train. Bought a sandwich at a cafe there and pumped with the Elvie Stride cups. Again, not a single comment or strange look.
• 7pm: at the hotel, pumped and did ALLLLLL the dishes! Set things up to have a pumping station at the hotel and a mobile one in my pump bag.

During the workshop, I froze bags in the conference center freezer and had staff freeze some in the hotel. The hotel was definitely not as good; they put them in there themselves and they were not at all flat.
this is how the milk was frozen at the hotel . . .
The trip home was a bit easier in some ways and a bit more complicated in others, because I had to do it in two parts. I packed my cooler backpack full of all the frozen milk.

• 9am: last pump before the trip.
• 3pm: pumped on the train. This felt like a big step forwards, honestly, because I was sitting right next to a woman and our seats faced a couple across the table. But I put my nursing cover on and slipped my Elvie cups in and it wasn't nearly as weird as I thought.
• 6pm: pumped again with the Elvies on the train
• 8:30pm: pumped in my Airbnb and did dishes. I put all frozen milk back in the freezer, plus the bags of the milk I had pumped during the day, my ice pack, 8oz of water in each of the Ceres inner chillers.
• 12:30pm: pumped before going to bed and froze one more bag. Washed dishes and slept.
• 7:30am: packed my cooler bag and then pumped right before leaving the Airbnb
• 8am: checked in at the airport. Spain is not very progressive in this respect, and since I was traveling without a baby, I had to check my frozen milk. I packed the cooler bag in a suitcase, surrounded by some clothes and a plastic bag to hopefully avoid even minimal leaks.
• 9:45am: pumped in the airport lounge. I'm definitely getting more comfortable in public! Even used the regular flanges and bottles. On the way back, I decided to use each set twice, within 4ish hours, to avoid having to clean parts. After this pump, I bagged up the parts and stuck them in my suitcase.
• 12:30pm: pumped on the plane, then slept
• 5pm: pumped on the plane with the same parts. After this pump, I realized the Ceres Chill inner chamber was all liquid, so I switched it out with one of the other ones that I had frozen, which were still mostly ice, because they had been in a cooler and hadn't been cooling down warmed milk.
• 7:15pm: pumped on the plane before landing. Went through customs and picked up my checked bags, including the milk - about 12 hours after packing, the milk in the cooler bag was still 100% frozen. Now that I was in the US, I repacked to keep the cooler bag with me; US TSA regulations explicitly allow you to carry milk (frozen or fresh) even if you don't have a baby with you.
• two hours later (3:30pm local time): pumped in the lounge, using a nursing cover and the same regular flanges and bottles as last pump
• 6pm: pumped on the plane with the Elvie Stride cups. The man next to me must have noticed because later he referenced my baby when I hadn't mentioned it, but it was totally fine.
• 9pm: replaced the Ceres inner chiller again, then pumped with the Elvie Stride cups while walking to the gate. When I sat down to empty the milk, the woman next to me held up her pumping bag in solidarity! We chatted about how it was going - it was nice to have some camaraderie!
• 11pm: landed and took a Lyft home. I immediately emptied the cooler bag and put the milk in the freezer. Everything had thawed just a little bit, actually just enough to be able to reshape the very non-flat bags into a flat shape, so that actually worked out really well! I also emptied the Ceres Chill and inner chillers of today's milk into a pitcher; I bagged and froze that this morning.

all my milk finally frozen flat!
I seriously can't believe how well it all went. I pumped 50 times over nearly 8 days - in planes, trains, cars, while walking - and produced 265oz (over two gallons!), and all of the milk made it home! But basically I learned that EP requires so much mental and physical energy, and all of you who do it day in and day out are the real MVPs!

By August 2017, Musk remained hyper-focused on Model 3 production, which was proving slow and painful. As Musk described at trial, “The sheer amount of pain required to achieve that goal, there are no words to express.” This aspect of Musk’s testimony was totally credible.

• Tornetta v Musk - Post Trial Opinion, p. 56

I have seen no serious contention that Musk was not instrumental in achieving a net 10+ multiple of Tesla's market cap under his compensation plan. The best attempt I've seen is a few claims that really Tesla is about the rest of its talent (implying he has nothing to do with drawing and organizing talent), and that he is just a well-publicized incompetent pretender. Oh, and same with SpaceX, Neuralink, and the rest. Does anyone seriously believe this? Musk couldn't possibly do more to prove himself. It's literally rocket science AND brain surgery.
The trial judge did not question this. The entire decision appears to rest on the claim that the voting shareholders were misinformed because the board members were described as "independent", when in fact they are mostly friendly Musk. Also, with Musk on the job, the board suddenly said the goals were "achievable" when getting loans and making internal stretch forecasts. And there was hope they would reach a point of growth inflection...something that was clearly not a probability without herculean efforts. Well, yes, turns out that for once they were achievable...with an incentivized Elon. (See Opinion starting p. 82.)
So one punk rocker with less than ten shares complained and was the only one willing to go to court. Where was everyone else who thinks this was a travesty? In the meantime, as Elon was sleeping on factory floors, hitting stretch goals, and the stock became a meteor, then the court proceedings dragged on until AFTER he had accomplished his goals, and THEN decided, well, the shareholders wouldn't have voted for this if they had any inkling the board members were Musk's friends. Imagine that. A company where the founder has friends on the board.
It's much too late after he's made the effort and hit the goals. The judgment was "entirely unfair", and such a claim by someone with a few shares borders on spurious. The lawyers' ask is worth its own litigation in terms of the damages they are attempting to inflict on Tesla and its shareholders. Furthermore, these lawyers argued a case against stratospheric compensation based on principle and then argued that that same principle doesn't apply to themselves. THEY should be paid astronomical sums with Tesla stock for clawing back performance-only based compensation. What unparalleled logic and chutzpah.
In 2022, Elon famously bought Twitter and exposed some incredibly evil, large-scale machinations of censorship and government coercion. Matt Taibbi documents this extensively, but a major thread is that anyone the government didn't like was identified as "Russian" and censored, even against Twitter's better judgment. See Hamilton 68, which was totally debunked, with receipts. Since then, he has been the clear target of wide-ranging smear campaigns. One example, the Wall Street Journal repeatedly puts automatic Tesla software updates on the front page as "safety recalls". (Yes, the NTSB is in on that designation. Virtually any tweak theoretically affects "safety".) That's not news, it's a campaign to denigrate Tesla.
The rest of the media is also replete with stories about how Elon is just so problematic all of a sudden! I leave as an exercise to the reader to study the extent to which they are contrived smears, some sillier than others, some outright defamatory (like "anti-Semitic"). But it is surely a coincidence that these same detractors and their bosses used to be emotionally invested in having a Twitter that censored their political opposition.
Elon is a force of nature. If you can't see that, leave TSLA alone. If you are on some emotional or paid crusade to attack him, perhaps find something constructive to do instead.

I’m working through Halliday, Resnick, and Walker’s “Fundamentals of Physics” and I noticed that in the “exercises and problems” section at the end of each chapter, there are questions marked “E” and others marked “P”. The E and P designations are also referenced in the solutions at the back of the book.
This seems kind of odd. I take it that E questions are exercises and P are problems. That’s reasonably easy to figure out. But… why draw a distinction? They’re in the same section. They come one after another. Why create two designations? Why not just make them all problems? Or make them all exercises?
My best theory is that it’s meant to convey a sense of difficulty? But the difficulty seems to rise with bigger numbers anyway. So the letter designations feel unnecessary because the numbers imply difficulty already.
Why go to the trouble of labeling them E and P?

Hello! My wife and I are contemplating on getting a GSD because of various reasons like home security. Our about-to-be-built home was intruded (twice already) and sadly, some construction workers got their stuff stolen during their sleep. There will be two of us living most of the time. We already have a 5 year old beagle in my parent's home and we will be taking him with us. Now I've got few questions hoping this lovely community can help me with:

1. My wife and I are working from home 9am to 6pm. Our lifestyle is not that active but we're planning to have morning jogs when we move in. I know that GSDs need plenty of exercise daily and show lines are the ones that require less. So I started looking for a show line so I wanted to make sure that this GSD fits our lifestyle and meets our needs to protect our home.
2. Will a GSD be a good companion to a beagle?
3. What kind of training does a GSD need for a basic home security, apart from obedience training?
4. Our beagle is stubborn and only obeys when he knows I have a treat in my hand. He is also an escape artist. It's partly my fault because I wasn't able to oversee or be with him in his first two years because I was working overseas. Will the GSD demand more time than what I can offer, whereby I am usually working from 9 - 6 and can only socialize in the morning or in the evening.
5. My wife has asthma and is allergic to furry cats and dogs. We plan this GSD to stay outdoors. I learned that GSDs shed a lot. Will this work for my wife if we don't allow him indoors?
6. If GSD doesn't fit for our lifestyle/beagle, may I know if you have any other recommendations for a good guard dog?

Apologies if my questions portray me as a person who only needs a dog for security. I will say that I love dogs and love having them around as part of our family. My beagle (despite being stubborn) can attest to that! Hehe
Thank you and looking forward to a productive discussion!

Trigger Warning This write-up does contain theories and info connected to politics, religion, divisive public figures, and a couple of Fortune 500 companies. I am in no way claiming or trying to promote any of the ideas or theories I share as facts and I encourage everyone reading to not just take every connection I made that you agree with and ignore the rest. I think it’s always good to paint a picture of your own instead of watching someone do it through a computer screen. It’s always good to do your research into whatever claims you think may have some validity and even those that don’t. Just because you don’t think something is significant doesn’t mean others won’t and you shouldn’t discourage anyone who is genuinely trying to move the sub in the right direction. We shouldn’t even engage the trolls because all it does is motivate them further and help them get more engagement on their posts.
I know my posts aren’t for everyone, but I encourage people to keep an open mind and to try to avoid any potential biases. Everyone has some, but as long as you stay aware, keep them minimal, and try to stay as neutral as possible you’re good. If you notice all of your material is painting a negative perception of a specific group it’s good to try to put yourself in others’ shoes. I’ll never know the experience of growing up in a dangerous environment, being hated and victimized based on things I can’t control, and the generational trauma all these things can cause which is still being passed down to this day.
While I do have hope for Gen Alpha, I’m afraid that by the time they reach adulthood, there may not be many good mentors and visionaries that have stemmed out of the adversity caused by the social policies that are currently causing such massive division between the younger and older populations. It doesn’t help we have people in Hollywood making Civil War propaganda movies with 100-million dollar budgets. I go into this a lot more throughout the next few posts I just need to compile everything and edit it together, which often takes more time than actually doing the research and writing the facts. I did download Grammarly so that should help speed things up. I know that finding connections and tying them together is a bitch at first, but the more research you do the more you’ll start seeing the bigger picture.
Intro to Free OSINT Tools: How to Find Clues and Determine What’s Bullshit Or Not As I’ve said before, you can use people’s info to find related information without doxxing someone’s address or social media account. Most people are already aware of this, but for aspiring Reddit detectives, this might be a good little introduction.
I’ve been working on another mega-post and decided to share this part before I finish up the rest because this part contains a great example of basic OSINT. All the info below is free on the Internet, but if you have some money to blow you can also pay for government-level background checks on people. Some of these data collection services can cost up to 300 a month, but some are very reasonable. The one site I linked has full background checks for five dollars a pop. Some services even scan onion sites for more related info. With the rise of AI, data collection is getting better and better. Now they can collect samples of your writing and analyze your speech patterns to tie them to other accounts. If someone were to take all my posts here and feed them into one of these programs, I’m sure if I had any type of social media or if they hacked one of my accounts and could collect my messages, it would be very easy to match my Reddit account to my real identity. This technology is probably in its infancy stages right now and what’s available to the public is probably only helpful for public figures or if you have a lot of info publicly available on social media. Regardless you should always be careful of how large of a footprint you leave online. You should assume that everything you do online is being collected and stored and may be used against you if someone has the money to access it.
A good example of the potential these programs have is in Drake’s diss track with the AI Snoop Dogg and Tupac verses. I go into Snoop a little more later on and I can’t help but feel like he’s compromised in some way. I found it odd that Snoop didn’t seem to care about his voice being used in a diss against a fellow LA rapper, but then again they are known to be associated with rival gangs. I assume Drake had to at least get some form of approval and I know he has ties to Canada. He even starred in a few episodes of Trailer Park Boys where the whole plot line revolves around him smuggling weed over the Canadian border back to the States.
Getting back on track here, I was honestly surprised by how well the program Drake used was able to mimic their voices and rapping style. I think this was Drake showing Kendrick that no matter how many songs he had, he could just feed them into the program and it could formulate a diss track that nearly perfectly resembles his cadence, flow, and rhythm on top of his voice in an authentic matter. I’ve heard recently of AI-generated Russian influencers that are made by either the Chinese or Russian governments, perhaps both, to create the image of a strong alliance between the two countries, and even some that promote marrying people from other countries. Some theorize this is to rebuild Russia’s male population since throughout history Russia and the USSR have a history of feeding their soldiers into the meat grinder for nationalistic purposes.
I think it’s very important that we take into consideration that the alleged dog video featuring Drake could be an AI deepfake and part of a coordinated takedown or a humiliation ritual. I know a few movie studios already have access to some of these programs and they claim they’re too dangerous to make publicly available. As we’ve seen though it’s only a matter of time before someone makes their own version and releases it for free. I think this is going to create a massive wave of synthetic and deepfake porn and I’m sure they could put Drake’s face over a porn actor and make it look pretty realistic. It reminds me of the episode of Black Mirror where the prime minister has to fuck a pig on live tv and they tried using a porn star and superimposing his face on him. Even Okproblem warned about the possibility of the dog video being AI-generated. It should be considered that this could all be a distraction from the current conflict between Israel and Palestine or any other geopolitical conflicts.
Many examples are demonstrative of the power of some of these data collection and surveillance networks. A great one is all the stuff Edward Snowden leaked about the NSA and other whistleblowers who were forced to move from one country to another where they couldn’t be extradited to the US and most like “commit suicide in their jail cells while on 24-hour suicide watch.” Other examples include John Mcafee, Julian Assange, and more recently the two Boeing whistleblowers who died mysteriously right after they testified against them. The government and some major businesses and corporations have access to these programs that are much more powerful than the public is aware of. Please keep these things in mind when posting. There are ways to circumvent most services that promise anonymity like VPNs and using Tor. Even if you use a VPN company that allows you to pay by cash and doesn’t require any type of connection to your identity. Even if you’re using tails and you’re on another person’s public or private network. Even if you know who is running all the nodes on Tor and you’re using one of those “extra security VPNs” where you know and trust whose IP is rerouting your shit. If you have a decent amount of info tied to your real identity they can probably find your ass real quick.
The only way to be completely immune to cyber threats is by never using a phone or computer your entire life. If it’s too late then you’d need to throw any electronic advice in an incinerator, buy an underground bunker that doubles as a giant Faraday cage, and live in it for the rest of your life. Even then you can still get tracked unless you’re changing your writing style completely as well as the types of spelling and punctuation errors you use. To do this you need to have a solid grasp of whatever language you speak, because one mistake repeated a certain amount of times may be able to connect your private and public online personas. I’ve noticed that trolls often like to string people along and constantly harass people with the hopes they defend themselves. I’m sure 99 percent are just idiots, but this would be a great way to collect a good sample of someone’s writing style to analyze.
The article linked below is an example of how some hackers are doing shit beyond what most of the population thinks is possible. If info like this was on Fox News or CNN there would be a mass exodus of Boomers from social media. (Maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad thing!) https://www.rambus.com/blogs/bypassing-air-gapped-faraday-cages/
Just because these types of exploits exist doesn’t mean you’re going to be the victim of one. Unless you’re a political enemy or you pissed off a billionaire you’re probably fine. You may be thinking to yourself, “Isn’t Drake almost a billionaire?” The answer to that question is yes and yes he is capable of accessing tools like these and using them for whatever purpose he pleases. I have a strong feeling it’s being funded by Lucian Grainge and is part of his 400- million-dollar contract with UMG. Having someone with no morals, that much influence and an unlimited bankroll to take out your biggest opponents from other labels sounds like a pretty solid business strategy. It’s also classic gang/ government shit. In another section of the mega-thread I go into this a lot more and how labels are literally like a pyramid scheme and rap labels have the added component that the lower levels are forced to collaborate with mortal enemies or gang rivals. Even if their life is being threatened, they have to put on a facade and pretend things are all good. I go into this a lot too in my last mega post.
These newest posts were inspired by Thuglifevol3 and some other users like Commie90 who I think are spitting facts, but getting harassed or threatened. I’ve dealt with it in the past, but it appears the guy behind the accounts may have been banned so I’ve been chilling since then for the most part. I hope some of you will think this info is interesting or relevant. If not I hope you at least learn something about OSINT. I tried laying out my research and explaining it so others can hopefully use these tools to find information. The two links I posted below are good starting points. This is just the intro, but I should be done with the body and the bonus features tomorrow at the latest. I’m about 90 percent done with the actual post, and like 80 percent done with the bonus features, I just wanted to get this out first.
The Reddit post below has a lot of great recommendations for free and paid OSINT services and some of the freebies are solid like the one I mention later. A good way to test reliability is to search for your name and investigate yourself. It helps to determine what info is reliable and the common errors that are found in the data provided by some of the free or cheaper services. I don’t think it’s necessary to pay, but if you think it’s important and don’t mind dropping a couple of bucks it might be smart to see if you can get some background checks on important suspects. You just can’t share anything considered an invasion of privacy or slander or defamation so please just be very selective about how you use these reports. As I’ve said a trillion times we don’t want to fuck up an investigation. https://www.reddit.com/OSINT/comments/11fafpb/ what_is_the_actual_best_person_lookup_tool_read/ Drake vs. Mesha I just want to drop another disclaimer before I get started. This is probably the craziest, most unlikely connection I’ve found, but I thought if there is any weirdness going on it might be interesting to some of you guys. Even if you don’t believe my theory it could help uncover some of the hidden motivations behind the recent beef and where it’s led us today. There is probably a 99 percent chance my theory is false, but I still find all the info I found very strange. If it’s true though it could be connected to the ties between the Houston and LA rap scenes, the Ye beef, and the lawsuit against Young Money, maybe even the Diddy stuff.
If my theory about, “South Park Shawty,” is true it could also be an example of how Drake uses his connection to J. Prince and his “mob ties” to help him gain favor in the West Coast rap scene and to cover up for his bad behavior.
In 2017, a woman named Mesha Collins was accused of breaking into Drake’s LA home and drinking a bunch of his sodas and water. He decided not to press charges because he claimed she was mentally ill, but Mesha implied there was a lot more to the story and that she and Drake were previously connected in some way. https://www.newsweek.com/drake-responds-4-billion-lawsuit-woman-who- broke-his-home-1657250
I saw another article from around 2022 about Drake’s connection to Travis Scott and the Astroworld incident, which is interesting because there have been court cases filed against Drake and Travis for sending subliminal messages and brainwashing people with their lyrics. https://www.casemine.com/judgement/us/600a7e0f4653d01f3e04bb56
https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/drake-astroworld-lawsuits-motion-to-dismiss-1234986332/
This one accuses Drake and Rihanna of using subliminals similar to the accusations made by Mesha Graham. https://www.casemine.com/judgement/us/5f8d1a714653d02a4358be19
Here is another ongoing lawsuit against Drake, OVO, and Lucian Grainge accusing them of copywrite infringement where he is using a pseudonym. Therefore it’s very possible that Mesha Collins may be a pseudonym as well. It also mentions The Dream who just got accused of SA. https://www.casemine.com/judgement/us/65d33a63cda6612875fbff10
https://www.nytimes.com/2024/06/04/arts/music/the-dream-rape-lawsuit-terius-gesteelde-diamant.html
I wonder if Mesha Collins may have been a victim of something similar. Another article mentioning her name accused him of leaving subliminals in his music and a few months later Drake responded with a restraining order. The article below is about a text she sent Drake’s lawyer saying that God would turn his back on Drake one day and telling the lawyer to kill himself. She ended up not showing up to the court proceedings and it was said that Drake was planning to pursue a permanent restraining order.
The only cases I could find that were publicly available involving Mesha was a defamation lawsuit and his restraining order lawsuit. There is also a brief mention of the legal proceedings after the alleged break in and another case in her home state from 2019. https://radaronline.com/p/drake-alleged-stalker-restraining-order-refusing-to- show-up/
This all started when I attempted to do some further research on Mesha, who in 2021 sued Drake for defamation and requested four billion dollars. I’ve mentioned it before, but it seems to kind of get overlooked because no one seems to think it’s worthwhile. It very well may be the case, but recently while working on the J. Prince stuff, I started trying to see if there was any connection between the industry and any other of Drake’s many controversies. It wasn’t the first “frivolous,” case she tried to open against him after she allegedly broke into his LA home and decided to get a drink and kick it in his room. She ended up getting arrested for trespassing and attempted robbery after a member of his crew found her chilling in his room wearing one of his hoodies and was accused of resisting arrest and spitting at the cops. On the other hand, Mesha swore up and down that she had permission to be there and that she and Drake knew each other to some extent. At the time she was 24 years old, and her address was listed as an apartment in South Carolina.
When I thought more about it this whole case I kept on finding more and more things that struck me as a little odd. The first question I had was, considering how much security Drake has and how they have stopped so many past intruders, how was Mesha able to slip by? From what I could find it seems like she may be the only “intruder,” to successfully get through the front door of Drake’s house. I find it funny that TMZ was the first to report on it considering they’re rumored to be bought and paid for by the Kardashian family and the break-in happened a couple of months after Ye accused Drake of trying to kill him. They lived down the street from each other around that time so I wonder if Ye had anything to do with it. (I got into this more in the 2nd part of my Kendrick and Ye industry takedown theory which should be done soonish, I’ve planned this quite meticulously and I want to finish up this post before pursuing any new subjects. https://www.rte.ie/entertainment/music/2017/0419/868631-fan-breaks-into-drakes-house-and-robs-a-soft-drink/
When I searched her name pretty much everything I could find about her on Google was related to Drake and the lawsuits. A couple made fun of the fact that all she took was a couple of drinks out of his fridge and many called her a deranged fan or a stalker. The only comments Drake made after the incident were trying to paint her as delusional and deny any connection to her before or after the incident. It’s very common for victims to be painted as crazy after they threaten to release some dirt on a celebrity as well as Drake’s history with women. https://www.newsweek.com/drake-responds-4-billion-lawsuit-woman-who-broke-his-home-1657250
Taking into consideration past allegations, accusations, and lawsuits, against him, I can’t help but feel like this was coordinated with the media. They often labeled her as crazy or a clout chaser when pretty much aside from Drake’s word and the trespassing allegations, the only supporting evidence was the large amount of money she was requesting in the lawsuit. The way I see it is there could have been more to it, but Drake and his lawyers either paid her off or used their influence and money to shut her up. In the end, after he had the case dismissed the media just made it seem like she was an obsessed fan and was doing this for his attention and for a chance to meet him.
Pretty much everyone forgot about the original incident for years until the news came out about the defamation suit she filed against him. Another article claims she had been caught trespassing at his property on six other occasions (6 God?). She was also accused of attacking and spitting on his fans as well as the cops who originally arrested her in 2017. Considering the defamation suit she filed accused him of doxxing her in a few lyrics and social media promotions and posts then only goes on to name one or two of them. There were some super random promotions Drake posted on his Instagram where one product had the name of the city and another had the name of her state in them. I was able to confirm this was true and considering she also said she was getting a ton of shit from his fans and her family was also being harassed, it could explain why she disappeared from the internet completely. Knowing Drake fans this seems pretty spot on. https://www.rap-up.com/2022/02/22/drake-alleged-stalker-files-restraining- orde
Drake then went on to file a restraining order against her a couple of months later around the end of 2022. The quote below includes the reason he claims to be filing the lawsuit. 'She has sent messages saying she wishes me dead, and that I should shoot myself and my son with a bullet,' Drake said in court docs. 'As a result of Ms. Collins' harassment and obsession with me, I have suffered and continue to suffer emotional distress and am concerned for my safety and that of my family.’ I wonder how often he receives death threats and doesn’t take it to court.
I also found it weird she included Adidon or who knows maybe she’s talking about another son. Didn’t Thuglifevol3 say in his post that Kendrick was right about the kid, but not the gender? They also claimed in the article below from 2022 that Mesha was homeless, which could explain why no one noticed when she seemingly vanished off the face of the earth not long after. https://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-10737229/Drake-granted-three- year-restraining-order-woman-says-stalking-years.html
https://allhiphop.com/news/drake-24-hour-security-multiple-stalking-attempts/
The details of the court cases weren’t too helpful because the original case was dismissed and the only info I could find without paying was the summary of the restraining orders that both of them filed against each other. I know I’ve said this before, but I find it quite odd that she filed a defamation lawsuit, but her lawyer never told her to stop harassing and threatening the guy. Of course, Mesha lost her case, but Drake won his in April of 2022 and he was granted a three-year restraining order. I’m not too knowledgeable about this stuff, but I wonder if this would prevent her from being able to file any further lawsuits. I guess we’ll see next April if nothing comes of it beforehand. https://unicourt.com/case/ca-la23-mesha-collins-vs-aubrey-drake- collins-731101
This article below has some methods people can use to prevent others from filing lawsuits against them if they consider it to be frivolous. I included a link as well as a description of SLAAP lawsuits and Anti-SLAPP motions. If anyone is a lawyer and can find out if these were filed that would be sick. It could also be relevant to any of the other 100 lawsuits filed against Drake. It kind of sounds like some Omertà shit to me. I also don’t know if this is possible, but I was wondering if Mesha Collins was her real name or if they used a pseudonym on the public court documents to protect her privacy.
“A SLAPP lawsuit (short for Strategic Lawsuit Against Public Participation) is a lawsuit filed to silence or intimidate an individual or an organization exercising their right to free speech. The objective of a SLAPP lawsuit isn't necessarily to win, but rather to burden the defendant with costly legal fees and stress. Usually, these SLAPP lawsuits are fired off by powerful businesses or individuals to silence critics or whistleblowers. An anti-SLAPP motion is a legal mechanism designed to protect businesses and individuals from these circumstances and can be a powerful tool for stopping frivolous lawsuits in their tracks.” https://www.lawmatics.com/blog/4-strategies-for-preventing-and-handling- frivolous-lawsuits/
I’ll post part two in a minute. Sorry if it’s a little clunky I haven’t had much time to edit and re-edit it due to its length. Also Reddit always fucks up the formatting when I copy it from Pages.